11/14/14 Music Therapy

If talk of bodily functions bothers you, click away now. Today, a conversation about musical therapy of sorts…with a friend who has the unfortunate situation of constipation.

ME: Today is the birthday of Aaron Copland. Fanfare for the Common Man.

Friend: As far as Aaron Copland goes, you’re way more into show tunes and sh*t than I am so…

ME: He’s classical. :-)

Friend:  I know.

ME:  Oh. Ok. I love that he defined the “American” sound for composition. I know you love music so give it an ear if you wish. I hope it moves you so much you poop.

Friend:  Appalachian Song?

ME: Rodeo-IV. Hoedown might do it. App Spring might be too gentle. You need some movement. And driving rhythm.

Happy Birthday Aaron Copland. I really am a fan.

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11/12/14 Wordless Wednesday: Little notes with my car payment keep me grateful

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11/5/14 Wordless Wednesday: Halloween – Yes, Mr. Yankovick, I’ll be in your video

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photo cred, all but first photo: Erin Taylor, Go! Running

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10/24/14 Friday Freewrite part 2

Wow, do I feel self-absorbed and pitiful. (This morning, I spent a few hours pouting, feeling fearful, and anxious.)

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Jean Thompson Ackerly Barnard, my maternal Grandma Oct. 29, 1918 – Oct. 25, 2009

I just realized that tomorrow, October 25, is not only the Soaring Wings Half Marathon, it is also the anniversary of my maternal grandmother’s death.

My first Soaring Wings Half Marathon, 2010, I ran in honor of Grandma. I gave my mother, her daughter, a shadowbox of my medal, bib, and photo.

I have a rather, uh, colorful outfit for tomorrow’s race. I’m sure Grandma would say, “You look so chic!” and she’d pronounce the CH as in chicken not as /sh/.

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Grandma and her zany outfits. I come by it honestly.

Do I still feel anxious about tomorrow’s race? Heck yeah. But I’m ready to suck it up, Buttercup. And I’m excited. I just had to get my head straight. As in, head out of my a$$.

Me and my CHic self are gonna rock this thing tomorrow, in whatever shape or form it takes to finish. For Grandma!

I know. I know This post is self-absorbed, obvs! Geez. But really, I share so that anyone who may also have similar pre-race feelings can maybe get a different perspective too.

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10/24/14 Friday Freewrite: Running blues aka you can’t have it all

Friday Freewrite…where I set the timer for a random time and just write, no edits.

WAH

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Photo: joy filled days dot com

I have a half marathon tomorrow. I’m not excited. I feel undertrained. I am afraid of pain. My last few long runs have been painful and frankly I’m not sure I’ll finish 13.1 miles tomorrow without a significant amount of pain. And I don’t mean slight soreness. I mean pain. Searing, someone-is-doing-voodoo-on-my-left-knee-with-an-ice-pick pain.

What happened to the girl who was EXCITED to do these things? Confident she would finish relatively discomfort-free? Dunno.

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Kristen G and me before the 2010 Soaring Wings Half Marathon.

Yes, I know I chose to register and I can choose not to do this race. But I don’t want to wimp out.

Not only am I a-feared of this race, I am sad about missing 2 entertainment opportunities tonight. When did giving up night-before-race entertainment options become a burden rather than a pleasure, in the excitement of a cool race experience the next day? Dunno.

I’ve completed a marathon and 5ks, 10ks, half marathons, so I know training requires sacrifice. Training runs instead of lounging at home with doggie on couch. Being in bed early Friday and Saturday nights because of an early long run the next day. I cannot have it all.

Being at the start line at 730am means rising at 5am for breakfast and other pre-race preps, leaving my house at 630 to get there in time to park and have my raceday meltdown/bitchiness. Some of you know EXACTLY what I mean because, unfortunately, you’ve been there with me.

So. Tonight I’m missing Ashley McBryde at Reno’s Argenta Cafe with her FULL BAND. [GO IF YOU CAN!] Yes, I see Ashley perform many times, but a full band gig is rare. It starts at 10pm…2 hours after I plan to be in bed. Because, race.

AND I had to pass on 2 free tickets opening night at  The Rep. Champagne reception. The show starts at 8…1 hour after I plan to be in bed. Because, race.

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Me, Sarah, Erin, and Milo the Dog – National Running Day 2013

Yes, I know that many other people cannot walk even a step, much less run around the track once (I’ve been there), or complete a race. I know this in my brain, cognitively. But my little selfish heart says WAH WAH WAH. I want to be able to do a race AND feel excited about it AND not worry about pain AND do other stuff leading up to the race.

I know that this is the mental/emotional challenge of running. “Running is 80% mental, 20% physical” yadda yadda. And I WILL overcome. ESPECIALLY with the love and encouragement of my sole sisters, the HOT LEGS RUNNING GROUP and my friends and loved ones who will be route-side, cheering.

But for now, wah. 

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10/15/14 Wordless Wednesday: Fishy sculpture

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10/9/14 TBT 1987 High School Senior

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